August 2009
55 posts
“Happiness is a matter of one’s most ordinary and everyday mode of consciousness...”
– Iris Murdoch (via kari-shma)
I finally feel like him and I can be friends, and I’m totally ok with just that.
““We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospection.”...”
Sometimes I think about it and I’m like wow there is a person out there who just totally left us. I look at the dog’s face and I see total sadness, he is a different animal and I have to live with that. There is a human being out there that was ok with just leaving him like it was no big deal. I just don’t get it. How can a human being do that?
I miss him
I miss him
I miss him
I miss him
I miss him
everyday
without end
He spoke to me in French. I just stared at his perfectly coiffed side burns while not understanding a word that came from his lips. My mind wandered imagining this person in situations that I only imagine you and I in. My answer was right there. I abruptly ended the conversation and literally just walked away. He was probably still talking. I didn’t care. My heart is with you, my mind is...
He goes backwards despite what he says →
It’s strange the way he’s revisiting the past every single day with her. He once told me he doesn’t go backwards. That’s obviously a lie. It seems every second he is waiting on her every last word as if he has nothing else to do but listen to what she says. Waiting there every second of the day no matter what time it is to just say something to her. Giving her this...
Dad please die again →
Despite the fact that it’s abstract I know it’s a piece of clothing coming off passed her thigh. I wish I could switch this pain for something else. Everyday I wish my dad would die all over again because it would be so much easier then this.
New happenings are all around me. All I want to do is call and share it with him. It breaks my heart into pieces because deep down inside I know he thinks the exact opposite of me.
gatekeeper:
can-be-infinite-: Yann...
I often drift off and wonder what it would be like if we got remarried. I imagine what our wedding would be like. I loved our wedding day so very much. It was the best day of my life…….. why did that day have to end?
“Nothing that’s worthwhile is ever easy. Remember that.”
– Nicholas Sparks (via littlemiss) (via papertissue)
Why didn’t he realize that and give up? He gave up. He gave up. He really gave up. One thing he never does he did.
Staying Gone
dearoldlove:
If you’re gonna stay gone then fine, but please don’t message me saying everything we did together was a series of terrible mistakes. I’ll never agree.
Stillblog
dearoldlove:
I know my blog makes it seem like I’ve moved on. Rest assured that I’m still just biding my time until you come back.
